Take your thoughts captive and they will not deplete you

Monday’s Message

You
I see you
Up late
After the kids are fed and bathed
Trying to sneak in a moment away
Of peace in this place
Only to rise early
and repeat the next day
Breakfast, lunch, dinner
Schoolwork and play
The dishes are piling high
The beds still unmade
and you think to yourself
Will I ever get a break?
 
How selfish of me
To feel so unhappy
But I am utterly running on empty
Depleted
But constantly needed
Yet, I feel so unworthy
To be on this journey
When all I want to do is crawl into my bed and hide
Gone is my sense of pride
Of holding it together
As I silently scream inside
 
and these thoughts they consume me
Destroy me
Confuse me
and when You call me
All I can say is 'Who me?'
I can't even muster to put on my blue jeans
Truthfully I feel lost
Eaten alive by my thoughts
I cannot even pinpoint the source
Feeling used
Coerced
This isn't what I have been praying for
 
and my selfish tendencies
I let get the best of me
and down the spiral I go
Drowning in my own home
Lord, please find me
The silence is gone
Yet, amidst the chaos
You reach for my hand
Daughter, you were not lost
Your sins have been bought
By My blood on the cross
Do not worry
Do not fret
The tears that drench your face at night
Are a sign you are alive
Don't run
Don't hide
That battle has yet begun
and it starts in your mind
Let Me ease your pain
Let Me join your fight
You can't do this alone
Have you not been told?
With God all things are possible
and nothing, no one can stop you
Yes, in this life you will have seasons of blue
But steady soldier fight on
and do not let this world trouble you
For your battle has been won
I have overcome
Dear heart, stay strong
Fight on

​-Abigail Rice

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