Life happens too slow – or that used to be so. Looking back now, those were the days of easiness, the days of sweet freedom. Yet I always found myself seeking the next season, never able to “just go with the flow” and having to constantly be in the know.
What comes next? When will my life go as planned? It never did and I knew I had to leave it in His hands. Stop with the incessant planning and perfecting – and start living. Instead I kept dreaming. Dreaming about life as if it were a movie; playing out perfect scenarios in my head. Knowing in the end it was never His plan, and for me, I would have to move on. Onward, ahead.
And as soon as I stopped wishing, I began living, and the pictures, they stopped playing but for me the real movie was just beginning… so fast, with no preview. No time for planning or knowing. The scenes, they just kept rolling. The funny thing is, now life won’t stop spinning – the once “too slow” is now so fast, and when I look back I can’t believe how He shaped my past. So perfectly. So intricately.
Every moment, every worry, all those times I just wanted it to ‘hurry’ – He was moving me to be exactly where I am supposed to be. Am I where I wanted to be? That no longer matters because I am becoming the woman He created me to be. At times feeling unready – but knowing that now I have four hands and two hearts to keep me steady. A Father above, who has gifted me with so much earthly love.
And I stop in awe as I remind myself all over again that my life is in His hands. There is no reason to worry. Nothing is in a hurry. His timing is perfect. His movie forever playing.