I was prayed up and emotionally ready for the biopsy, and I just wanted to get it done so I could move forward without this shadow following me. Welcome to Coffee Hour with Chicklit Power and Monday’s Mantra with Trench Classes United. If you’re new to the blog, you may want to go back a week to get parts 1 and 2 to this so you don’t feel lost reading what I’m sharing, from my heart to yours.
After an hour and a half of twisting, turning and torturing, these words are not what I wanted to hear: “We can’t do the biopsy.” The tears that had been sitting in my throat and threatening to spill out did…like a faucet forcefully turned on.
In an effort to practice not focusing on the negative, but grasping for something positive in the midst of chaos, I can honestly say that though I walked out of there without the biopsy completed, I now had knowledge that I didn’t have when I walked in.
I had an opportunity to talk with the doctor who will be performing the rescheduled biopsy and she showed me the two clusters they are concerned about. The problem lies in where they’re laying! They are close to the chest wall, which is why the nurse had such a difficult time getting a clear enough image, because the image is what will guide the needle to the correct location for the actual biopsy. If they were to have just gone ahead with it, they could have punctured my lung!
You see what I mean about finding something positive in the midst of chaos and confusion? So as you’re reading this today, I will be undergoing another attempt to accomplish this procedure but in the meantime, I have had more time to prepare emotionally and spiritually, to become more confident in my mountain mover and less focused on the mountain – or in this case the little clusters inside my itty-bitty! To look toward healing, and not speak the C word over myself, to be a walking testimony for and about My Healer!
Stay with me in this journey, please,