Hope dispels despair ~KE

Thursdays Trench Truth

Thanks for joining me for Thursday’s Trench Truth.

“It’s the ‘I’ll never’ syndrome. I’ll never be this or that. I’ll never have this look, or that body or enough
money or the right whatever. Since I was a child, I have always felt a sense of despair which then I would
over-compensate with laughter or jokes (Symptom 5 of Guilt/Shame) or being the class clown. But my
sense of despair would keep me up at nights with nightmares and/or panic attacks, plaguing my mind with
scenes that were fictitious to the core. My sense of self-worth was wrapped up in a façade of others’
opinions of me, for example, my mother, teacher, or friends. What they thought of me must have been the
true me, so I traveled with their opinion, heavy on my back. This lack of self-worth (Symptom 3 of the Root
of Despair) prevented me from doing more for myself, setting goals, and keeping them. Many times, my
sense of hope was gone because my sense of self was so diminished that I could not see the future. I felt
stuck. I wasn’t worthy of anything and didn’t matter to anyone.”
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The thread woven in those words that I just read is depression, despair…if you relate in any way with any
of the thoughts I just shared with you, then please, do yourself a huge favor: invest in your well-being and
join us for Living Fueled by Hope coming to a trench near you the week of April 24th . There is also a Zoom
opportunity as well.

Hopeful,
Kim-Evinda