Hope makes the jump from victim to victor ~KE

​​Thursdays Trench Truth

​“It’s the ‘I’ll never’ syndrome. I’ll never be this or that. I’ll never have this look, or
that body or enough money or the right whatever. Since I was a child, I have always felt
a sense of despair which then I would over-compensate with laughter or jokes or being
the class clown. But my sense of despair would keep me up at nights with nightmares
and/or panic attacks, plaguing my mind with scenes that were definitely fictitious to the
core. My sense of self-worth was wrapped up in a façade of others’ opinions of me, for
example, my mother, teacher, or friends. What they thought of me must have been the
true me, so I traveled with their opinion, heavy on my back. This lack of self-worth
(Symptom 3 of the Root of Despair) prevented me from doing more for myself, setting
goals, and keeping them. Many times, my sense of hope was gone because my sense
of self was so diminished that I could not see the future. I felt stuck. I wasn’t worthy of
anything and didn’t matter to anyone.”

While her struggle didn’t address a specific situation, we can see what a sense of
despair does to us: it sends us looking for hope in all the wrong things, places, and
people, seeking the basic needs of life: to be loved, accepted, and approved of.
Friends, we were all born with the need to love and be loved, to accept and be
accepted. Join us for Living Fueled by Hope to learn how to do this healthily coming to a
trench near you in April.
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Hopeful
Kim-Evinda