She stared at the score in disbelief. The word that came out of her mouth was anything but Christ-like.
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She didn’t have time to really check what she had missed; she had to get on to the next thing on her to-do list, which seemed to be growing by the minute. Life had become a blur, the days blending into each other, and she didn’t like the pace she was living, let alone going.
The mid-term had been set for Friday, a day that was already so full with to-do’s, but with determination to go in and get it done, she began her test, telling herself that she was going to nail it.
The first question was not a good sign and after using five of the 90 minutes she had, she skipped it and went on to the next one. Within minutes, her confidence was beginning to diminish, and she literally began to shake as the minutes flew by while some answers seemed to remain at a distance. She powered through and was trembling by the time her time was up, though feeling somewhat accomplished and like she had done pretty well…until her grade popped up on the screen.
58 out of 75! What the…she felt as though the air had been punched out of her taking all of her self-control with it.
Have you ever been surprised like this? Where you thought you had done better than what you actually did?
I wish I could say that I remembered that our Heavenly Father doesn’t grade us like the education system does, but I didn’t. I literally sat in the disappointment and self-loathing for a while, and then tucked it away for later as I had too many things to tend to. How did I tuck it away? By simply saying, “I did the best I could do.”
That should have ended it right there, but it didn’t. Unfortunately any time we partner with our negative thoughts, attitudes and actions follow. It took me five days to let this go and grab hold of His grace…again to keep moving forward and climbing the mountains in front of me.
So what did I learn from this? Whatever negative thing we focus on the enemy empowers, and I don’t know about you, but I DO NOT want to partner with the enemy in anything in my life! We must make the exchange to change our focus. In Colossians 3:23-24, it says: “And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance; for you serve the Lord Christ."
In other words, when I do my best and commit it to Him, He will do the rest!