When Faith Meets Suffering-Part 11
Thanks for joining us for When Faith Meets Suffering, Part 11. Our author has actually been asked several times by some of her prayer team members if she was writing this journey down, to which she replied that she was via this blog, When Faith Meets Suffering. So, again, we want to emphasize that we realize Social Media is all about the “happy” side of life, and this may seem like a real bummer, but the author wants to share from the side of pain, because pain is a part of real life. On the other side, she knows in her bones that God will bring a victory from this season of suffering and will be just as transparent about the victory as she has been about the season of suffering.
The days turned into weeks, like a film in slow-motion, so painfully and relentlessly slow. And in the slowness, lies were being uncovered and truths were rising to the surface, making their way into her heart. Both sent her scurrying to her Savior for understanding, comfort and strength. The glue that kept her together was knowing that her – and his – Savior was fighting for their marriage. Not once, but twice the house had gone into escrow and both times it had fallen out for no apparent reason other than the buyers had changed their minds! The realtors had NEVER seen it happen twice in a row like that.
But she was calmed with the reality of God protecting him from making a huge mistake, a Loving God pursuing him relentlessly for He is protective of what He had brought together more than 14 years ago.
This was such a comfort for her aching soul. It spurred her on to a deeper trust.
The spiritual truths she searched for and those that showed up without beckoning held her together as if sewn into her inner parts with an industrialized sewing machine in a factory of hard-working angels. They came mostly in the quiet but they also showed up to quiet the noise.
Night times were the worst, when flashbacks of ignored moments would come rushing to her mind and threaten to overwhelm her with grief that turned into anger the more she dwelt upon them. “Why, oh why did I ignore the whispers in my soul warning me of the enemy’s schemes to be played out and participated in by those people whom I called friends? The evidence of the affair was mounting, causing her to walk unsteadily emotionally and physically. She went to His well often and drank…for endurance, understanding, for pain relief.
And the waiting, wondering if he would call, or text, even if it was out of obligation, just so she could know he was still there and she was there in his thoughts. She was torn between letting him go and wanting him to stay; so she chose to let God lead and not participate in creating more damage. She chose to be still and know, experience with her inner being, that God was and is a good, good Father, and though it felt like a train wreck day after day, she dared herself to trust for He had never failed her yet.
Are you going thru something painful, questioning why things are happening the way that they are? May I encourage you, my friend, to press into His principles and promises for they never lie! Find a scripture and put yourself in it!
Isaiah 25:1 (rewrite) Lord, You are MY God; I will exalt you and praise your name; for in perfect faithfulness you have done wonderful things, things planned long ago. And you use all things. In your sovereignty, NOTHING is wasted, not even the pain.