Welcome back to When Faith Meets Suffering with Trench Classes United and Kim-Evinda. We understand that social media is sort of like that “in love” stage of a relationship, the “happier” side of life. For many, it’s a sort of pretend world. While we get that trouble and tears don’t make for a good blog, we pray that as she walks through this season transparently, you will be encouraged when you walk through a difficult time of any measure, remembering who walks with you. Let’s get back to the story.
She caught him looking at her, smiling as she played with their grandson uninhibitedly. She had made a point of staying in the moments with little B, not sure how many she’d have after this visit which was quickly coming to an end. The days had slipped by so fast. She was torn between wanting him to stay and wanting to find a rock and crawl under it.
But life doesn’t let you do that, if you listen to it, and she stayed the course as her husband got ready to go to his dad’s and take their grandson with him for his weekly two-day visit. She was frustrated that he was still going since their grandson was rarely with them, but it was clear that his heart was still not in the marriage. They would return Friday morning, about the same time that little B’s other grandparents would be picking him up for their visit before taking him back home up north.
Their absence, especially his, brought her a sense of momentary relief, as if a cloud had been lifted and she could see more clearly and yet, she had no idea what to pray. There were moments where she wanted to just forget what had happened and moments where she knew she couldn’t, that she needed God to intervene in a way that only He could, to make good on His promises that He had given to other people to give to her in this season of longsuffering, promises like “I will restore what the locusts have stolen” which combated her frustration and her pleas to God about being too old to go through this and that time was passing her by. The promise was for her heart to cling to. And then not once, or even twice, but three times in the days that followed, she had been given the promise found in Ezekiel 36:26 “I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.” This promise never failed to fill her heart with hope considering how hard his heart had been.
While this was for her, to ease her sorrow, it was about her husband, so she clung to this and rejoiced in the fact that she had a prayer team lifting up her marriage every day at a specific time. This was going to be a team effort.
Yes, this was a spiritual battle, and it called for all-out war, warring in prayer, His Word, and fasting…spiritual weapons of warfare.
Clinging to Him and thanking Him for those He’s sent my way to lift me up when I want to stay down.