Her blog from exactly a year ago stared her in the face and penetrated into the cracks
and crevices that still remained in her heart.
“Help me let go of what could be, could have been, Abba!” She desperately wanted to
know how to do this, to be done with whatever it was she was supposed to learn so she
could continue to move forward in life again, to be able to look back and not see huge
cracks in her once shattered heart.
Thanks for joining us for Wednesday’s Word with Kim-Evinda and Trench Classes
United. Today’s word is a great reminder that sometimes the hardest thing to let go of is
what could be or could have been. May we learn to practice believing in His Word and
taking Him at His Word in those difficult areas of surrender.
Sometimes, especially in difficult times, we just want it to be done, right? Just put
another check on our to-do list, get it, got it, good and done! But life doesn’t work that
way, or at least it’s not working that way for me right now.
Though I’ve talked and written about letting go and letting God, sometimes it’s as if I’m
suspended in midair, white knuckling through the pain still residing in my once
shattered, now fractured heart. The pain reminds me that I must learn to let go of my
need to understand the “why” of it all. What I am learning, however, is that the more I
cling to this mentality of needing to understand, the less I understand and the more
unrest I experience.
The other day, the realization that this persistent feeling of there’s something I’m not
getting hit me…hard! And when He led me to this scripture, I was finally able to figure it
out. Light bulb moment!
Hebrews 13:5-6 says:
5 Don’t love money; be satisfied with what you have. For God has said,
“I will never fail you. I will never abandon you.” 6 So we can say with confidence,
“The LORD is my helper, so I will have no fear. What can mere people do to me?”
The real victory came when He reminded me to put me in it, which is a powerful
exercise that brings the scriptures to life in our life. As I began to write my re-write for
you today, I felt divinely encouraged to write it as if it was coming from Him to me…and
now to you.
“Don’t love needing to know and understand the why of it all; be satisfied with Me, for I
have said and proven that I will never fail you, nor have I ever abandoned you. Instead
of crying out about this season, cry out to others with confidence that I am your first
helper and companion, your first husband.
Because that is true, whom or what shall you fear? When you truly allow Me to be your
focus, and not your current season, the One you run to and not from, looking to Me
instead of all the what-ifs, you will understand that no one or nothing can take from you
what is yours: Me in you and for you.”
As I read this again, I realize I only need to let go…again and again and again so I land
in His will for my life, knowing that I can trust Him and His plans for me.
My friend, what would your rewrite look like?