There is lots of good that comes from just being vs. doing ~AR

Monday's Message

When’s the last time you put your to-do list aside for the sake of just being…and keeping your sanity?
 
Thank for joining us for Monday’s Message with Abigail Rice and Trench Classes United. Today’s Message is a great reminder that there are moments throughout the day that we need to just do that, especially raising a family.
 
Most days go by
I feel unheard
Unseen
Unknown
 
The work in between
cooking , cleaning, and attempting to raise two toddler boys with another just 9 weeks away
Time seems to come and go
Like waves
Sometimes rolling fast
And other days so slow…
 
Like a lull
A dream
Except it’s the kind
Where i want to scream
 
Like waking up to an alarm
& realizing you missed everything
The anxiety…
 
The productive side of me
Wants to finish & accomplish everything
While the mother side of me
Ends up feeling guilty
For not just resting
& being
Here in this moment
Teaching, listening, playing, being
Anything other than a ball of stress
Constantly needing to know what’s next
Crossing things off each and every list
 
Where is the balance
Where is the peace?
 
Living in between
Snacks and naps
Timeouts and cries
What day even is it
In this moment of time?
 
It’s okay, i’m fine
I tell myself
When deep down I just want to cry
When schedules are remiss
& nap times don’t exist
& that thief
Comparison
Comes back again
 
Because I must be doing something wrong
Or else my kids would get along
We would have playdates
And activities
Someone to actually listen to me…
 
Yet i sit here
& just feel guilty
For feeling this type of way
& just pushing them away
Saying go play
 
& the cries
They break
Every moment of silence
& Every thought in the way
& I have to remind myself
It’s not the end of the day
 
There’s still time
To start again
& be okay
 
If a second chance
Is what I get
Then a second chance
Is what i’ll give
 
It’s time to forgive
& to let go
It’s time to remember
That I am never alone
Each day holds
An opportunity to be
Exactly what He called me
A daughter
A mother
A sister
A wife
A friend to someone
Even if that someone today
Is just me
--
Mama you are stronger than you believe
Even when the days seem long
Look beyond
& you will see
The beauty in this moment
To just be
You are not unseen
You are fully loved
& fully seen
Doing work far greater
Work for a King
Who stand beside you
& before you
Who absolutely adores you
& entrusted you with the greatest job of all
Motherhood.

 
“Do not call to mind the former things, Or ponder things of the past. Behold, I will do something new, Now it will spring forth; Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, Rivers in the desert.” - Isaiah 43:18-19