What He calls us to He will equip us thru

Monday Mantra

How are you feeling?
No, really?
            Happy?
            Sad?
            Angry?
            Frustrated?
            Or just okay?
                        Because just okay, is not okay.
When you have a real enemy
Who lies in wait
To captivate your attention
To have an undoing in the midst of your messy kitchen
With one simple thought
You are lost
The entire ball drops
Shattering more than your stained glass door
One simple thought
Can pull you back
To a space where all you feel is lack
            One glance in the mirror
and what you once saw
Is now a whole different picture
            Filled with stretch marks and scars
As a baby cries
And another calls out mom
Who is this woman
Who used to have it all?
But now lives in a place filled with marker and milk stains
            Where there is nowhere to run
            and nowhere to hide
            and your automatic reply is always, “No, I’m fine.”
“Really, I’m okay.”
But just okay, is not okay.
When the enemy sees cracks
and begins to take up space
Leaving you desolate
            and alone
With no one to call
and nowhere to go
            and those are exactly the lies
he wants you to believe
            That you’re not good enough
            Not worthy
No one would even want to listen to this pathetic version of me…
           
But that story you’re told
Is so washed up and old
If you could just be brave enough to pick up the phone
Call a friend
Call anyone
Call someone
            and know
            That you are not meant to carry this burden alone
 
Your burden is not too heavy
and the only way to dissipate that negative energy
Is simply to cry out
            It’s okay to scream
            It’s okay to shout
                        Be angry
                        Be sad
But in the end
Remember that this
Is all a part of God’s ultimate plan
            So embrace this
            This season of almost
                        Of washed up dreams
                        and scattered things
                                    and remember, darling
                                    It was you He called to step into the ring
and not for one second
Did He leave you unequipped
Because, warrior, mama, daughter, you have EVERYTHING you will ever need within
            To fight this battle
            You are guaranteed to win.
 
“So then [God’s gift] it is not a question of human will and human effort, but of God’s mercy. [It depends not on one’s own willingness nor on his strenuous exertion as in running a race, but on God’s having mercy on him.]” - Romans 9:16

​~Abigail Rice