You’ll find your strength in trust

Monday's Message

Lord, I do not know where to begin
I feel weak
Trapped
I cannot escape this fate I have been given
and I question why?
Why have I been picked?
and I feel shame
Like it's a sin
I feel to blame
I cannot win
But this
This is not a game
This is not a competition
This is just the season I am in
 
But I beg
and I plead
Please take this sickness away from me
Of doing too much
Not feeling the love
Self-pity and loathe
I am a sinking boat
The sails are there
I just don't care
My heart is far
I cannot hear the call
To be strong
Yet weak
Because you, oh Lord, are already strong enough for me
You carry me
When all I want to do is bury me
In distractions
In over reactions
 
The tears that create waves
I can't breathe
No, I am brave
I am not better
I cannot storm this weather
Lord, it is You who saves
It is You who says "Do not be afraid"
Hear me Lord
Be near me Lord
 
The storm has been tamed
Deep breathe
I am okay
Take my heart
My burdens
My serpents
Lord, it is You that has been there from the start
 
"…In repentance and rest you will be saved, in quietness and trust is your strength…
Therefore the Lord longs to be gracious to you, and therefore He waits on high to have compassion on you,
For the Lord is a God of justice; How blessed are all those who long for Him." - Isaiah 30:15 and 18

​-Abigail Rice